Gone But NEVER Forgotten...

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He wasn't good for me,

He had a bad repetition,

He had a horrible attitude,

He was way too old for me,

He treated his ex girlfriends like trash on the side of the street,

He even hit them.

But that still wasn't good enough for me. I still wanted him. I let him talk to into a relationship. I knew what his past looked like but I was looking at what I wouldn't him and I to have through rose colored glasses, where everything was perfect.

Everyone including my parents said I couldn't and shouldn't be with him but still i wanted him. I heard what people were saying it went in one ear and out the other. He had me wrapped around his fingers like a little baby learning to walk. Just the way he wanted it.

He started treating me like he could care less about me. He said I started tipping but i can't see how all I ever did was give him my heart. I hope that girl he created on me with make him happy Because I'm not going to fall back into him arms, and I swear there's are the last tears that will ever fall from my eyes over him.

I let it slide and pushed the pain away, but this time he has crossed the line and it is the end of our race. Its over and done and never to ran again.

I wrote this poem to say this I know how it feels to be in an aduse relationship. I know you may feel like he loves you but he really doesn't. Thankfully I got out before it go too bad. He may not have hit me but he hurt me emotionally, like the saying sticks and stones may break my bone but works will never hurt. I am living poof that words do hurt sometimes even worst. If I would have stayed, it would have been only time before he would have hit me. If you are in an aduse relationship it's never too late to get out, there's always hope!

Missing Pieces...

You just replaced me like I meant nothing to You, You probable didn't even think twise about it. You tell me not to be mad at You because You don't even date Her, Yes that may be true but just seeing You with Her brought tears to my eyes. That used to me me but now it's Her!

As I was fighting back them tears I couldn't help but think...Do You even know how much You hurt me? Do You even care? Or do You just sit back in laugh? Do You laugh about me to Her? Do I even cross Your mind anymore or am I just some dull thought in the back of Your mind?

I've said this so many times that I will let You go and be done. Well it's easier said then done! It's like trying to stop smoking when You've done it for so long and you feel like it's all you know.

But when I felt Your arms around me and Your lips on mine, it brought back them old times, when You made me feel so safe, like You wouldn't let NOTHING happen to me, When it was just You and me!

I knew deep down inside that I wanted You still so bad, but as soon as I thought that my heart cried out "NO" because it knew all You would do is break again.

And it's hard to put the pieces of my heart back together, because all You even do is leave them scattered all over the floor. Although when I do put them pieces back together it wont be the some because I now have missing piece that now belong to You.

I held myself together so You wouldn't see me fall apart. But as soon as I got away, I feel apart. I couldn't find the strength to hold back one more tear.

The more I saw You the more I wanted You, BUT when I saw You with Her I realized something through all the pain, that You don't deserve ME!